The mind can be a scary place.
It’s the control centre of everything we do.
Mine can overwhelm me with all this exciting ideas that fill my head and I don’t know where to begin. It also creates fear and doubt and talks me out of doing things. But not this time..
I now have 1 week left of leave before I return to my full time job – which I really do enjoy.. kinda. I have learned so much in 4 months and I have so many new ideas which at first was a little overwhelming.
So many creatives and artists are doing such wonderful things. How will I stand out? How will I be different? Why would a customer choose me? I’ve certainly never considered myself a follower.
Here’s what I know:
- I. LOVE. INTERIORS.
- I need to start somewhere
So I did. Remember there is no plan, just a step by step organic approach. As I tick one thing off my hypothetical task list I feel my way to the next thing.
So I’ve set up my business, my Instagram is slowly attracting attention and I’m now officially a blogger. I never thought I’d be doing this but it’s a great way to get my thoughts out of my head and to share my lessons with others in the same boat.
One day I saw an ad on my news feed on how to build your business on Instagram. Targetted at creatives it was as if it was talking to ME. So I did it. I bought the modules and finishes every single one as I worked on my Instagram page. I was feeling energised and excited by all this promise and hope and the followers were growing.
But I’m still not clear on my ‘WHY’? (Google Simon Sinek’s ‘golden circle’). I know I want to play in that space – which I now am – but what next? What is my purpose?
Maybe I’m putting pressure on myself again so in the theme of ‘being kind to myself’ (see previous post) I’m going to slow down and keep doing what I’m doing.
Why? Coz it feels good.
So that’s it. I return to work in 2 weeks and here’s some of what I’ve done in 4 months (not necessarily in that order):
- Turned 40 – not as scary as it sounds!
- Completed half my Cert IV studies (with High Distinctions) – TICK!
- Social Media for business – TICK!
- Set up my Business – BIG TICK!
- Had a love interest for a while which was fun but when it fell over, it was a relief to have Design to fall back on to keep me distracted.
- I also ticked a few bucket list activities and destinations off my list:
- Blue Mountains
- Barossa Valley
- New Zealand
- Great Ocean Road
I’ve accomplished everything on my original list and more. What’s not written on paper is how much I’ve learned about myself, my fears and strengths. I’m capable and confident and I can do anything I set my mind to.
My mind might create thoughts of fear and doubt but I’ve learned to let those thoughts happen – they are just thoughts. It’s how I choose to act and respond that makes the difference.