Just start!

One of my goals for 2014 was to (finally!) enrol in Interior Design.

Well it’s the L A S T day of 2014.  I still have time..  a few hours..  But why did I leave it til the last day?  I have the determination but I AM the queen of procrastination! Aghh..

By 4pm I had made the call and enrolled.  I instantly felt relief, satisfaction and excitement!  Needless to say this feeling set the mood for a great NYE.  I felt like I could do anything.  I suddenly have so much to look forward to and the year hasn’t even begun.

I’ve worked in the corporate world for 20 years and turning 40 somehow came with growing a set of balls (so to speak..).  What have I been waiting for? What was I scared of?  I’ve been talking about doing this for soooo long that even I got sick of hearing myself!

So I bit the bullet and took 4 months of leave from work to dive into my studies and fast track my pursuit.  Four months.  Plenty of time right?

Well it was JUST enough.  Apart from a few short getaways, I spent day and night at the laptop and completed half my course – what should take 12 months I did in 4.  I’m pretty happy with that.

My goal for my return to work was to J U S T  S T A R T!

I have no clear vision yet.

All I know is I want to play in that space.  I want to immerse myself in the world of design.  To look, feel, play and listen to what people want before I go creating my version of a solution without talking to my potential customers.

I also have the small problem of a full time corporate job that will consume my time.  So starting small and starting slow is perfect for me right now.

My #1 priority.  Be Kind To Myself.

Before I finished work to start my break, an influencial colleague reminded me to not put so much pressure on myself.  I will never complete everything and I need to be realistic.  He was right.  So the first week I did nothing..

Yup.  Nothing.

That looks a little something like this:  sleep ins, pj’s, midday tacky movies, no cooking or cleaning, etc etc..  It was tougher than I thought at first but I quickly got into the rhythm.  But one week was just enough.  I wanted to PLAY.

One week into my leave and already so many learnings:

  1. Be kind
  2. Don’t put so much pressure on myself
  3. Our minds create so much fear and so many scary thoughts – at the end of the day they’re just thoughts.  We choose how we process or act on them!
  4. It’s really not that scary once you start
  5. Big goals are overwhelming so break them down..  one. step. at. a. time.

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