One of my goals for 2014 was to (finally!) enrol in Interior Design.
Well it’s the L A S T day of 2014. I still have time.. a few hours.. But why did I leave it til the last day? I have the determination but I AM the queen of procrastination! Aghh..
By 4pm I had made the call and enrolled. I instantly felt relief, satisfaction and excitement! Needless to say this feeling set the mood for a great NYE. I felt like I could do anything. I suddenly have so much to look forward to and the year hasn’t even begun.
I’ve worked in the corporate world for 20 years and turning 40 somehow came with growing a set of balls (so to speak..). What have I been waiting for? What was I scared of? I’ve been talking about doing this for soooo long that even I got sick of hearing myself!
So I bit the bullet and took 4 months of leave from work to dive into my studies and fast track my pursuit. Four months. Plenty of time right?
Well it was JUST enough. Apart from a few short getaways, I spent day and night at the laptop and completed half my course – what should take 12 months I did in 4. I’m pretty happy with that.
My goal for my return to work was to J U S T S T A R T!
I have no clear vision yet.
All I know is I want to play in that space. I want to immerse myself in the world of design. To look, feel, play and listen to what people want before I go creating my version of a solution without talking to my potential customers.
I also have the small problem of a full time corporate job that will consume my time. So starting small and starting slow is perfect for me right now.
My #1 priority. Be Kind To Myself.
Before I finished work to start my break, an influencial colleague reminded me to not put so much pressure on myself. I will never complete everything and I need to be realistic. He was right. So the first week I did nothing..
That looks a little something like this: sleep ins, pj’s, midday tacky movies, no cooking or cleaning, etc etc.. It was tougher than I thought at first but I quickly got into the rhythm. But one week was just enough. I wanted to PLAY.
One week into my leave and already so many learnings:
- Be kind
- Don’t put so much pressure on myself
- Our minds create so much fear and so many scary thoughts – at the end of the day they’re just thoughts. We choose how we process or act on them!
- It’s really not that scary once you start
- Big goals are overwhelming so break them down.. one. step. at. a. time.